It’s been more than a year since I last wrote on this blog. Caught up with work and life, I have been finding it hard to find time to reflect on my life and write things off my mind.
2015 had been a year full of ups and downs. Career, life, romance.
I decided to give romance another chance. I did something I ‘d never thought of doing, I tried online dating (app). I see it as a good way to meet people from all walks of life, a window to meet people that I’d never get to talk to in real life. It was just a little social experiment of mine. Never had I imagined it would leave such a long and lasting impact on my life, at least that’s what I feel now…
We started off chatting on the app, then one thing leads to another, we then went on to chat off the app. Then, we finally met in person. I still remember the first date we went on, he suggested hiking, which is very different from what a guy would suggest for first dates. At first, we didn’t seem to have anything in common. In fact, we are like from the opposite sides of the planet. He’s into board games, Star Wars, Game of Thrones, etc, none of which I particularly take an interest in . I’m into salsa dancing, eating, singing, drawing, none of which he’s interested in. But somehow, we still keep seeing each other and talk about everything under the sky.
I definitely learnt a lot about life and relationships from him. I don’t think I’d ever taken my past relationships seriously, and I’d always been very rash and impatient. I realised what I’d done wrong in my past relationships is that I tend to fall head over heels too quickly, before I got to know the person well enough, and then give up on the relationship too easily once I felt the spark or chemistry is no longer there. Also, I tend to spend a lot of time with my partner in my past relationships. As a result, I tend to lose myself after a relationship has ended because I was overly reliant on my partner for my emotional well-being. It was toxic and unhealthy, to be honest.
With him, due to our busy work life, we don’t get to see each other very often. But when we do, we enjoy and appreciate each other’s company. I can be my true self in front of him, burping in front of him, he would show me all his silly selfies to me, everything just feels right. The pace is slow, but I feel it’s heading the right direction.
Just like any other relationships, there were difficult times as well. December was a particularly month for me and for us. Everything is suddenly full of uncertainties, uncertainties about the future.
Whatever is the outcome for me and for us, I hope things would turn out well for everyone. And for now, what I can do now is to live in the moment and to enjoy the last remaining hours of 2015!
Happy new year everyone! xxx